
Sunday, December 12, 2010
Snarf snarf
So ya.. This weekend was cool and stuff.. I like.. You know got into an argument with my dad because he isnt happy at the fact that I popped the question to my GF :P. To say the least it would be asking to much for him to glance in my direction at this point in time. This weekend I did some work for this guy and I went out and bought some christmas presents for people. I am hoping to god that tomorrow is a snow day. School is a drag sometimes and if we skip monday it will just make this week that much sweeter. So with all of this being said i am just excited that this is the week before christmas break. Winter break is a nice pause in the halfyear action and is also a good thing for those people who are grading half year. So ya like i said this weekend was cool and you know.. stuff.. So like i said, lets all hope for a snow day!
Sunday, December 5, 2010
School
All throughout my life i have had this crazy outlook on school that has been, well to say the least, very negative. School has always seemed to be this overwhelming and stress built thing that is there to both educate you and to make you not want to learn anymore. I have been trying really hard to keep a positive outlook on this year but its trying hard to push me back to the same ole me who doesnt care about what he does and doesnt turn in. With all of this being said i am going to devout the rest of my time to finishing this project we are working on these next couple weeks and see if it pays off. This weekend was lame. the end
Sunday, November 28, 2010
Story..
It was all a blurr. I couldn't move my body. My arm was... burning. It hurt so bad but at the same time felt like nothing at all. I couldn't quite make out anything clearly but there was something moving. The next thing I remember was waking up in a room that was so dark i couldn't see an inch infront of me. Something was licking my toes... I was still frozen. My body refused to let me do anything but breathe. The intense feeling of helplessness overwhlemed my body. It felt like being held over the side of a building. At this point though i just wanted to fall. What felt like days was really hours. What felt like hours was really minutes. There was an ominious breeze blowing.
"Jess... You are not welcome on earth. This is OUR playground.. Your end.. is near.." something whispered in my ear. When the final words were spoken I passed out again. It was almost like something was holding me... constricting me... watching me.. You would think that sleeping is this amazing thing but when you have no dreams you get lost in a world of nothingness. I awoke a time later and had the ability to move finally. Some people believe they are born for a reason but that's not me. I was the smaller kid and was never really a leader in a situation, always a follower. I was 5`2 and had dark brown hair. You would never take me for a popular kid thats for sure. My life was very dull because all I ever did was run through the same route every day. I was the kid who always did his homework and always strived for achieving geratness in school that, to be honest, never gave me any enjoyment. It was still pitch black in the room. The creature thing finally left my toes alone but now it felt like something was messing with my hair. I was past the fear part. You can only be scared for so long before you get pissed off and over confident and try to do something about your problem. In the dark I would walk for what seemed like forever and never find an end. I exhausted all of my energy and sat down to take a rest. I think I dozed but there was no way of really telling. There was this light shining in the corner of the room! I ran in the direction of the light but was stopped by a figure... I couldn't see him and he spoke softly.
"You are not alone my son. Your job here is almost done. I wish to give you something..."
The tall figure stood before me and handed me this dagger looking object. I reached out and took the object. It was a dagger.. Its long and jagged blade shinned bright as day. It illuminated and seemed to be showing me a direction. The bright corner. I ran towards it excited and hopeful for freedom. As I took the step to go outside something grabbed me.
.
Its long wings seemed to stretch on forever. The rooms boundries shined to show there was none. The demon yelled,"Now is your end!"
It charged at me and swung its blades in my direction. I darted to the side just bearly missing. It took another charge and stabbed one of its blades deep into my arm... it burned... I shrieked in pain... my arm felt like it was melting. I took the dagger the stranger gave me and stabbed it into the demon.. just as it sank into it's skin a voice whispered to me.
"With this blade, you will relieve all sin from the world, with this dagger, you are free..."
The demon's body shot into a light mass and finally shattered into nothing... I walked towards the light feeling proud... and crying from pain.. a funny combination. As I stepped outside I started to fall... I fell for what seemed like hours.. finally I landed into a soft ground..
"You are mine Jes. Welcome to MY WORLD!"
As I looked up the demon was there again... and then it all came back to me... I never woke up..
"Muhahahahahah!"
"Jess... You are not welcome on earth. This is OUR playground.. Your end.. is near.." something whispered in my ear. When the final words were spoken I passed out again. It was almost like something was holding me... constricting me... watching me.. You would think that sleeping is this amazing thing but when you have no dreams you get lost in a world of nothingness. I awoke a time later and had the ability to move finally. Some people believe they are born for a reason but that's not me. I was the smaller kid and was never really a leader in a situation, always a follower. I was 5`2 and had dark brown hair. You would never take me for a popular kid thats for sure. My life was very dull because all I ever did was run through the same route every day. I was the kid who always did his homework and always strived for achieving geratness in school that, to be honest, never gave me any enjoyment. It was still pitch black in the room. The creature thing finally left my toes alone but now it felt like something was messing with my hair. I was past the fear part. You can only be scared for so long before you get pissed off and over confident and try to do something about your problem. In the dark I would walk for what seemed like forever and never find an end. I exhausted all of my energy and sat down to take a rest. I think I dozed but there was no way of really telling. There was this light shining in the corner of the room! I ran in the direction of the light but was stopped by a figure... I couldn't see him and he spoke softly.
"You are not alone my son. Your job here is almost done. I wish to give you something..."
The tall figure stood before me and handed me this dagger looking object. I reached out and took the object. It was a dagger.. Its long and jagged blade shinned bright as day. It illuminated and seemed to be showing me a direction. The bright corner. I ran towards it excited and hopeful for freedom. As I took the step to go outside something grabbed me.
.
Its long wings seemed to stretch on forever. The rooms boundries shined to show there was none. The demon yelled,"Now is your end!"
It charged at me and swung its blades in my direction. I darted to the side just bearly missing. It took another charge and stabbed one of its blades deep into my arm... it burned... I shrieked in pain... my arm felt like it was melting. I took the dagger the stranger gave me and stabbed it into the demon.. just as it sank into it's skin a voice whispered to me.
"With this blade, you will relieve all sin from the world, with this dagger, you are free..."
The demon's body shot into a light mass and finally shattered into nothing... I walked towards the light feeling proud... and crying from pain.. a funny combination. As I stepped outside I started to fall... I fell for what seemed like hours.. finally I landed into a soft ground..
"You are mine Jes. Welcome to MY WORLD!"
As I looked up the demon was there again... and then it all came back to me... I never woke up..
"Muhahahahahah!"
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Weekend
So this weekend was special to say the least. My dad's GF thought it would be a great idea to have a family weekend. And its one of those things where you know it will be... lame. But you don't really have a choice. So we started off by going shopping. Something about shopping really bores me. Its not so much getting the clothes as much as you having to try them all on. Anyways we blew through 2-3 hours trying on clothes then proceeded to head to O`Charlies. I got some Bacon hand burger thing and then a giant brownie. When we got home i did about 2 hours of HW and then went to sleep. Then woke up and then cleaned all day.. then believe it or not did this blog.. then fell asleep. It was fun. Anyways now you know about my amazing weekend.
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Oh joy
So.. This past weekend was short lived. It felt like it blew by in like 2 seconds which just means this upcoming week is going to be forever long. I am excited however that i am going to the midnight premier of Harry Potter. But other then that its going to be just another week.. Next week is thanksgiving week tho and i have that Holiday lights thing where i get to like be an elf or something. Government credits are proving to be a tedious thing to come accross. So ya... This Literary thing we had to do was kinda lame... Im not one for reading 300+ page books in a weeks period. Unless the book was good but... it wasn't. Found out the kid was kinda physco. Which is all good i mean if you wanna kill your family and stuff to survive thats you. But me personaly i feel a nice death to a shark would suffice. Anyways. Ya. Go blogger
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Weekend
So... This weekend was good :P. Jade finally got ungrounded this weekend so i took her out to dinner on friday. I took her to Olive Garden and then took her to the movies. We saw Paranormial Activity 2 or whatever its called. Im not gonna lie for me knowing that a movie is fake that movie was pretty scary. I kept telling myself it was fake but when that chick got ripped into the air all i could think was that i was going to get ripped into the air when i got home. One thing that bugs me about those kind of movies is that its stupid stuff that starts. like... Omg the light turned off or omg my chair rocked alittle. Other then that my weekend wasnt very eventful. We put a new porch on the house and then i read this lame book we had to read. WTB assignment that didnt take me a bunch of hours after school to finish :P
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Lol at a fail post
So... Sunday night in a complete fail i didn't psot my blog. I thought i did but i didnt apparently. Like i hit the button that says publish but it didnt publish. Tech. is lame. You can lose stupid points because your computer hits lame mode. So ya we are reading books in class and they are..book... nothing exciting just another day in school i guess. Be nice to have a change in school. Somethign to spice it up like 4 days a week of school for alittle longer days. Thatd be cool. Ya.... I was driving down the street the other day and a cop was following me so i drove in a giant circle and he followed me the whole time. I made him come to my buddies house where i promptly parked in his grage (or however u spell it) and then didnt leave. I think it threw the cop off that i didnt leave it i was just in there. He eventualy left and so did i. The end, yay for a good story :P
Sunday, October 24, 2010
This I Believe
Some people prance about everyday honestly believing that there is no such thing as true love and that not everyone has someone for them. Love is a feeling in which you feel so strongly about someone that you get love symptoms. Love symptoms are actions that seem so crazy, you wonder why you are doing them.
I personally get this warm hearted feeling when I am near her. Who is this her I speak of? Her name is Jade Shepard. I can honestly say that before Jade came into my life I was not very happy. It absolutely amazed me that one person had the ability to alter my life the way she did and continues to do everyday.
You may not think there is someone special out there for you, but there is. Jade and I, at least through our eyes, are absolutely perfect. I am not saying that we never fight but we are always happy.
My old friend was actually trying to get with her and brought me with him to meet her one day. She was so gorgeous. Our meeting place was the movies. My buddy got up and went to the bathroom and I took her phone and lamely put my number in. When I got home later that evening, she actually texted me. At this point, I promptly asked her to go out on a date with me. The next morning she picked me up (because I am lame and can't drive) and we went to a park. That day was one of those "perfect" days. We pranced about the park all love struck by one another and finally took a seat and talked about everything. Near the end of our park visit, I asked her to be my girlfriend, and without hesitation, she said yes.
The best time we met up was that night at the school. In spite of Jade and I dating, my buddy asked Jade's best friend out. It was funny how he tried so hard to cause problems but all we did that whole time was stare into each other's eyes. At the end of our visit I got to put the cherry topping on my day. For some reason, I said how I felt without meaning to say it out loud. I am not saying I didn't mean it, but I thought I would appear creepy saying that now. "Jade, I love you," I said.
"Kalen, I love you too. But not in the same way yet," she replied. I honestly didn't know if I should be happy or sad. When she dropped me off she quickly drove off and I thought I had done something wrong. Two minutes later I receive a call asking me to let my next one go to voicemail. After listening to it I had never been so happy before in my entire life. To sum it all up, she told me she was in love with me too. In the good way. She was just so scared to tell me earlier. I am not saying that every person will have an amazing story to tell about how or why the met the person they did but the awesome thing about life is 90% of the time there is someone out there in the world that is just like you in so many ways. If you are mean and like to chastise people there may be someone in the world that is just as mean and you guys clash in a way that makes you happy. Or two people who enjoy doing community service together or something it doesn’t really matter. The point is that everyone in the world has an equal chance to find someone who is ment for them. This is why I believe that everyone has someone special for them in life.
I personally get this warm hearted feeling when I am near her. Who is this her I speak of? Her name is Jade Shepard. I can honestly say that before Jade came into my life I was not very happy. It absolutely amazed me that one person had the ability to alter my life the way she did and continues to do everyday.
You may not think there is someone special out there for you, but there is. Jade and I, at least through our eyes, are absolutely perfect. I am not saying that we never fight but we are always happy.
My old friend was actually trying to get with her and brought me with him to meet her one day. She was so gorgeous. Our meeting place was the movies. My buddy got up and went to the bathroom and I took her phone and lamely put my number in. When I got home later that evening, she actually texted me. At this point, I promptly asked her to go out on a date with me. The next morning she picked me up (because I am lame and can't drive) and we went to a park. That day was one of those "perfect" days. We pranced about the park all love struck by one another and finally took a seat and talked about everything. Near the end of our park visit, I asked her to be my girlfriend, and without hesitation, she said yes.
The best time we met up was that night at the school. In spite of Jade and I dating, my buddy asked Jade's best friend out. It was funny how he tried so hard to cause problems but all we did that whole time was stare into each other's eyes. At the end of our visit I got to put the cherry topping on my day. For some reason, I said how I felt without meaning to say it out loud. I am not saying I didn't mean it, but I thought I would appear creepy saying that now. "Jade, I love you," I said.
"Kalen, I love you too. But not in the same way yet," she replied. I honestly didn't know if I should be happy or sad. When she dropped me off she quickly drove off and I thought I had done something wrong. Two minutes later I receive a call asking me to let my next one go to voicemail. After listening to it I had never been so happy before in my entire life. To sum it all up, she told me she was in love with me too. In the good way. She was just so scared to tell me earlier. I am not saying that every person will have an amazing story to tell about how or why the met the person they did but the awesome thing about life is 90% of the time there is someone out there in the world that is just like you in so many ways. If you are mean and like to chastise people there may be someone in the world that is just as mean and you guys clash in a way that makes you happy. Or two people who enjoy doing community service together or something it doesn’t really matter. The point is that everyone in the world has an equal chance to find someone who is ment for them. This is why I believe that everyone has someone special for them in life.
Monday, October 18, 2010
My weekend..
This past weekend I discovered that my computer had this cool thing called a virus that seemed to do everything possible to screw with my ability to get anything to work.. After about.. 3 days my dad was finally able to come check it out and get it fixed and felt it was the perfect time to have the 'dont download anything without asking me' talk. Fortunatly all this was a lesson well learned because i got to see how to get rid of a stupid virus like the one i had in the future if it ever happens again. I also learned that downloading things that are listed under a Youtube video isnt a good idea. Through much personal debate ive decided that i am going to blog about this intense dream i had 2 nights ago. I had this dream that i was a scout sniper in the army and a zombie army was attacking our base. I was all killing zombies by the thousands and somehow i end up in a corner with nothing but a pistol with 12 bullets. I am like punching zombies and stuff and finally its the end and i put the gun to my head and then wake up. It was pretty intense i woke up all scared and sweaty and stuff. One of those dreams where you were running and somehow got a workout just by thinking you did. With all of this being said my weekend was actualy pretty cool. Nothing like having a 4 day weekend and just relaxing. Its nice to be able to wake up and realize its a thursday and you have no where to be. Anyways ill leave you all to read this blog most of you dont really care about! :P see you in class
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Homecoming Wreck
So i am going to try my best to not seem like a weird person but i was legit excited for homcoming this weekend! Now the reason i was so excited was becasue my date was going to be my beautiful girlfriend Jade Shepard :). Friday night started off good because we were both very excited for Toga night. Its always been a momentious occasion that lower classmen look forward to. Unfortunatly it turned out Jade had to work. She had been looking forward to this just as much as me so it hit her hard when she discovered she had to work. We decided that it was a good idea for her to skip work and we would go to the game. Next thing i know she doesnt want to go anymore and she has already skipped work so we went back to my house and decided we would grab my sister and have our own little lame movie night toga party. We are about half way through All Dogs go to Heaven when she recives a text from her mom saying "I know where you are get home NOW!". As she gets in her car and drives away i begin to worry about what her mom is going to do. About half a hour later i get a text from Jade saying no homecoming and no phone/car/computer.. The next 20 or whatever hours seem to disapear and it was homecoming. Now here i am feeling salty because i got my sister 2 dates being very confident and happy about finally getting to go to a dance with Jade and now i am dateless and still have to go because everything is payed for. Needless to say Saturday was a waste and friday was one of those "i really wish i could go back and change it" kind of days..
Friday, October 8, 2010
Monday, October 4, 2010
Weekend sickness
So this past weekend was a drag. I spent a good 90% of my weekend sleeping because of this sickness. Its funny how a chain reaction gets set off in a house of people when one person gets sick. It started with my step mom then went to my sister then to my dad then to me. It is an amazing thing to wake up on a saturday morning feeling like garbage and wondering if its a good idea to sleep till 6pm or not.
On sunday afternoon I went shopping for a new tie for homecoming and some new shoes. I know how much you guys care about what I got at kohls or however you spell it but id prefer to get this grade :P. I feel like us doing these blogs is pointless but at the same time informative. Maybe if you had a rough weekend and you blog about it Mr. Potter may cut you some slack on a paper or something. Im not saying it will happen just that its a possibility that we can all hope for. So other then me dieing and doing forever stacked high stacks of homework my weekend was good I guess.
For future refrence typing up your paper on a notepad at your house doesnt transfer to well into a word document..
On sunday afternoon I went shopping for a new tie for homecoming and some new shoes. I know how much you guys care about what I got at kohls or however you spell it but id prefer to get this grade :P. I feel like us doing these blogs is pointless but at the same time informative. Maybe if you had a rough weekend and you blog about it Mr. Potter may cut you some slack on a paper or something. Im not saying it will happen just that its a possibility that we can all hope for. So other then me dieing and doing forever stacked high stacks of homework my weekend was good I guess.
For future refrence typing up your paper on a notepad at your house doesnt transfer to well into a word document..
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
My hospital visit
On Tuesday, September 29th, 2010, my sister was admitted to Children's Hospital. Over the past couple of months she has had some problems where she feels very dizzy and drained of energy. Every time she goes to the doctor though, they tell her that there is nothing wrong with her. You would think that if something was truley wrong with her that the doctors would be able to figure it out but that doesn't seem to be the case here. It's been hard because my mom's insurance is about to cut us off because of the amount of money its cost the insurance company to keep her in the hospital on and off like this. It's also hard because after so many visits and no results you begin to wonder if these symptons that she is discribing to us are indeed true or some giant well thought-out plan that is her key to missing alot of school. This being her first year of High School she needs to understand that missing mass amounts of school will guarentee a fail. Part of high school is that you are walked through a step by step processes of how to get from point A to point B. If she misses 2-3 weeks of school she is going to miss over half of the steps. Its hard to build a puzzle thats missing pieces. We have been in school for about 4-5 weeks now and she has already close to half of it. Last night I so gratiously spent my night in the hospital in hopes that maybe they would find something this time and i would be able to feel like all of this money and possible cut off of insurance isn't for a lost cause but for a good reason. With all of this being said I feel that if she is saying she really feels this way then maybe she does. I really can't feel what she is feelings so i have no right to say she is ok or she is sick.
Friday, September 24, 2010
Sunday, September 19, 2010
The Secret Finances
This past week I discovered that the prices of some fast food places seem to have a blurry image for a price tag when you are seriously craving some food. On friday me and Jade (my boo :P) went on a field trip to sonic to tame our hunger beasts that had been growing stronger in us from the begining of the day. With limited amounts of money we tried to spend as smartly as we could which ment we split our checks so we could take advantage of the free route 44 drink that was given if you called in and answered the servey about the service you recived. I walked up to the order menu and never before have I felt the urge to order so much food before in my entire life. I pressed the red button and filled out my order and it all sounded so good and cheap that it was ok. When the lady finally read off my total for the order I realized I had dropped an easy 20 dollars on sonic. The lesson I learned from that was that although alot of the food sounds good on the menu sometimes its better to order small and make a sandwitch or four at your house. It may not sound as mouth watering but it can get the job done :).
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
My Weekend Realization
On thursday of last week I recived the news that my grandmother passed away at 9:34 pm. Violet Carr wasn't my blood grandmother but she was as close as they come. This past weekend I spent the whole time planning out what I had to get done for her funeral and getting all my timing in place so that I didn't miss anymore school then I had to. Sunday was the day of her viewing and I would love to say that I am this strong hearted person but open casket is just something I couldn't bring myself to go to. Monday was the actual day of the funeral and I have to say it is an amazing thing to see a family come together to honor the life of one human being. You would think that it isn't possible to touch the heart of so many people but here I was in a room of 400 people just in amazement. Overall her funeral was more of a happy and upbeat thing then a sad one because she was no longer in pain and weither or not I belive in god or not I know that she is in a better place regardless. The funeral service took about 4 hours and the people who spoke really stood strong up there infront of everyone. I went up to say something (which was akward because I didn't know anyone) and spoke from my heart how she had affected my life. Violet and George (husband and wife) were our next door neighbors when we moved in and without hessitation welcomed themselves and started there way into our lives. Me and my sister were very young at the time but there is nothing more comferting then 2 elder people showing you all sorts of love. After the funeral on monday I went home and just kind of tried my best to gather my mind and try to get my emotions in check. On tuesday it was apparent to me that I just felt sick to my stomach from being so upset so I crawled back in bed and slept all day. I would love to tell you that the day was spent having a great time and it was just a relax fest but it wasn't. The day was kind of a mournful day and a gathering day. Death is just one of those things that doesn't make sense sometimes. Death just is a mystery that we use religion to crutch off of as a couping mechanizem. The biggest question I have ever had to ask myself was what happen's after we pass. Is it really this amazing thing that be the best thing ever? Or is it this belief that once you pass you slip into this eternal dream that lasts forever? Regardless any of those options sounds like a blessing. Life after life sounds like a stress free enviorment with no consiquences. Anyways with all of this being said this is the reason that I had to unfortunatly post my blog late. The overwhelming feelings from someone close to you passing away is not one that seems to come litey. One thing that I can say that I honestly can take from this experience of losing 2 grandparents in a matter of 2 months is that the pain may seem so great and overwhelming but the greatest gift you can have in your life is a parent or good friend that you can talk to. You may lose someone great in your life but you also gain a new one. Im not saying they are the replacement but life is an amazing thing and one general rule that can keep you going is just keep taking the next step. You may feel like you have a tremendious force trying to hold you back but the fact of the matter is every one person has the ability to push and strive for anything they want in life you just need the push to do it
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